NOVA’S OCD RECOVERY STORY

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Before I became an OCD recovery expert, certified CBT practitioner & hypnotherapist I was like you.

A sensitive and creative soul struggling with intrusive thoughts, feelings of guilt and false memories.

I felt anxious and constantly questioned my morality.

I felt responsible for everything.

In my early 20’s I reached rock bottom. I suffered daily intrusive thoughts, panic attacks and fell into a deep depression.

The whole time I couldn’t help but wonder, what would life be like if I didn’t have OCD?

Was that even possible?

What would that feel like?

NOVA’S OCD RECOVERY STORY

Before I became an OCD recovery expert, certified CBT practitioner & hypnotherapist I was like you.

A sensitive and creative soul struggling with intrusive thoughts, feelings of guilt and false memories.

I felt anxious and constantly questioned my morality.

I felt responsible for everything.

In my early 20’s I reached rock bottom. I suffered daily intrusive thoughts, panic attacks and fell into a deep depression.

The whole time I couldn’t help but wonder, what would life be like if I didn’t have OCD?

Was that even possible?

What would that feel like?

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I was lost in compulsions

I was lost in my compulsions.

Unable to leave my home until I had checked I had locked the door hundreds of times.

I even filmed myself locking it and regularly watched it back to avoid having a panic attack.

At the time I had no idea that this was a compulsion which was making my OCD worse!

OCD nearly cost me everything. I ended relationships, stopped going out, my creativity disappeared and honestly, I wanted to stop existing.

It had put my life on hold and so as you can imagine, overcoming OCD became the single biggest priority in my life.

First, I needed to learn more about the condition. I wanted to know how long does it take to recover from OCD and how many people actually do recover?

Turns out most people need between 12 – 20 therapy sessions before they see a clinically significant decrease in OCD symptoms.

(Though it’s important to remember that everyone is different).

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My next step was to approach the government health care system and wait to be assigned a therapist.

At first I was kind of scared, I wasn’t even sure I wanted to get rid of my OCD.

Not completely.

What if it was the only thing keeping me in check to make sure I was a good person?

Spoiler alert: It wasn’t. OCD will tell you anything to stop you from recovering in the beginning and you will probably believe it.

After a 12-month waiting list, I finally saw my first therapist. I breathed a sigh of relief; it felt like maybe things were finally getting better.

 

Unfortunately, I struggled with the therapy I received. I went through four different specialists and engaged with ERP but something wasn’t working for me.

To be clear, the traditional methods of ERP & CBT are the best approaches for dealing with OCD.

The problem with me was that I wasn’t solely dealing with OCD. I also had a lot of internalized shame, guilt and negative core beliefs.

This is why I struggled to make any substantial progress with the work.

I later realized this was because at a core level I didn’t feel like I deserved to recover.

Consciously I wanted to recover, but unconsciously I felt like I needed or deserved to have OCD because I believed I was a “bad person”.

I realized my problems weren’t solely based around OCD. I was also deeply unhappy and stuck in intense shame. All of this was fuelling my OCD and making it worse.

It kind of made sense, after all the UK national health service website states that OCD is more common in people who have been bullied, abused or neglected.

What I hadn’t considered was that I needed to do a lot of self work alongside ERP because I was unconsciously sabotaging my progress. 

 

I realized part of me had been holding on to OCD as a way to continually keep me in check because I hadn’t developed self trust. Doing the right inner work helped me become my own ally.

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It was around this time I got involved in the OCD community. Reaching out, making friends with fellow sufferers just like you.

I started noticing similarities.

A lot of us are empathetic, artistic souls who often felt like they didn’t fit in & were either criticised a lot as children or given way too much responsibility.

Does this sound like you?

Through meeting people like you I felt motivated and refused to let my OCD recovery story end there!

I began to work on myself alongside utilising exposure response prevention techniques.

This was the start of my educational journey into healing OCD alongside my fractured sense of self.

I became fascinated with the incredible work of people like John Bradshaw, Pete Walker, John Hershfield & Carl Jung, the founder of analytical psychology.

I went to seminars, lectures. Met some amazing people and studied everything I could…

I spent the next 5 years turning myself into a human guinea pig and testing every theory until I uncovered a number of core techniques, which I wove into a concrete OCD recovery system.

After a few months of applying this system, I completely transformed my life and freed myself from OCD’s toxic grip.

You can learn more about this method here.

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My intrusive thoughts were no longer stuck and running me.

It’s important to state here that recovered doesn’t mean cured. In fact there is no cure for OCD in a literal sense.

But for the vast majority of my life, my OCD is barely noticeable.

Like all humans I can feel scared and I can worry but using ERP after building a positive and loving internal relationship means I am rarely if ever bothered by them.

My thoughts are my own and OCD has lost the power to keep me in a state of panic.

Nowadays I wake up feeling excited for the day and I have been in a secure and loving relationship for many years!

My days have stopped revolving around OCD and instead I focus on things I’m passionate about like spending time with my partner, walks in nature, travelling, thriving in my career and working on my art.

It was like a great fog had been lifted and I could finally see the horizon. I had forgotten how beautiful it felt to be alive.

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But my OCD story didn’t end here!

I didn’t want anyone else who had a similar journey to spend years trying to figure out how to manage their OCD recovery.

I wanted to cement my knowledge by training to become a certified CBT practitioner & hypnotherapist.

I also built OCD freedom is everything. An online community of over 3,000 passionate and creative OCD sufferers.

I offered free advice to help as many people as I could because I got a real buzz out of seeing others recover.

Pretty soon the requests for help flooded into my DM’s and I decided to make helping people with their OCD recovery my full time career so I could reach as many people as possible.

I attended seminars and mental health courses to learn the intricate and specific details of how to guide people to recovery, to heal people where they were struggling and to know how to steer each session to suit the individual.

Hypnotherapy gave me the tools to help work on negative core beliefs in an even more powerful way at the subconscious level, to clear the path for more effective ERP treatment.

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I reached out to my followers, we worked through the exact techniques I used to recover and those who committed to the programme found their OCD vastly improved along with their self relationship.

This lead to deep feelings of peace and helped them to get their life back so they could focus on the things they feel passionate about.

(Check out the testimonials section on the homepage for examples of this).

This leaves me with a question for you…

If you could replace struggling with OCD, anxiety and negative self talk with feelings of lasting peace and success in your future relationships, would it be worth spending an hour a week on that?

You’ve been lost in your thoughts for so long, it’s time to take back your life!

Right now there are two next steps you should take and they are both free.

1) Click here to get my personal anxiety release audio (which isn’t the standard relax and breathe deep deal). It’s a daily practise custom made to process limiting beliefs in order to let go of self critical thoughts leading to feelings of deep peace and calm.

2) Book yourself in for a free 15-minute consultation and start your own OCD recovery journey right now by clicking below.

I can’t wait to guide you on your healing journey!

All my love,

Nova x